Surabhu Kunja is Bhaktivedanta College alumna and Kirtan Course karatal and harmonium teacher.
I have been raised as Hare Krishna. When I was 15 years old, I didn’t know if I wanted to stay a devotee. I went to live with my grandmother for a year and was not busy with the religion at all. That year I found my life dry. Every day the same circle: wake-up, school, eat, sleep – life for me was starting to exist out of empty physical activities. It wasn’t deep.
I then chose myself to become a devotee and to start to keep myself busy with something bigger than myself. Life with devotion goes further than ‘me, myself and I’. God for me is a personal God, through which He is able to understand my earthly worries. I am busy with Him throughout the day, this gives me focus and confidence. I know that God created me as I am – with my imperfections – and that He loves me. That’s why I don’t constantly have to feel unsure about the question whether I am good enough, something I can see many peers struggle with.